Week 13- The Gal in the Glass

So I think the best thing for me to do at this point is be completely honest with myself and you guys.  This Master Key journey has taken my life to a place that I never expected.  What I thought I wanted wasn’t really what I needed.  For the last 7 years I have been a stay at home mom.  My life has revolved around my kids and my husband.  I have tried a few different business ventures over the years, wholesale real estate investor, and network marketing.  Neither my true passion, but seen as a way to better my family.  Over this course I have come to realize that the gal in the glass was not who she wanted to be.  She spent her days taking care of everyone and everything, bills, the house, cleaning, cooking, dishes, laundry, errands, kids, kid’s activities, schooling, and anything else that came up.  She put on a happy face and thought that she was okay, but inside she was silently suffering.

Don’t get me wrong, my kids are everything to me.  I know that my life has purpose because of the wonderful people that they are.  That alone is worth everything that I do.  But, where do I fit in?  That was the question that has been in my head over the last few months.  I’ve been looking at my DMP and it just isn’t right, not even close.  My one sentence that I’ve been saying in place of it isn’t even my DMP.  It’s what I have come to realize means most to me and all I want in my life.  All I want is to be financially free, completely happy and passionately in love.  All things that are missing at the moment.

So, where do I go from here?  Well, I have done a LOT of thinking over the last few months and I am in the process of figuring out the true me.  I have also figured out that I need to be me outside of the mom/wife me.  I will be registering to take my CrossFit Certification 1 to become a coach in February.  I am so excited about this!  To be able to help/encourage people to be in the best possible shape of their lives and to push them past where they thought was possible is such a wonderful thing.  I am looking forward to the transformation that will happen with me, it’s LONG overdue!

Still not sure where I will end up, but, I am on my way to figuring it all out.  Thank you all for all the words of encouragement over the last few weeks!

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Week 11- Struggles

Sorry guys, I know I’m late with this weeks post.  But to be totally honest I had absolutely NO clue what to write about.  This week was one of sincere struggle for me.  I had such a hard time understanding Part 11 of The Master Keys (like reading another language), I had a hard time finding inspiration and I had a hard time with the exercises.

I get some weeks will be this way and I’m just looking at tomorrow as a fresh start.  I just keep repeating Og’s scroll this week… I will persist until I succeed.   🙂

Week 10- A Truck and a bag of Oreos

Lets start off with a little story…

Once there was a little boy named Parker.  He was 3 and as many 3 year olds are, very persistent.   One day Parker’s mom took him into Target to get a few things that she needed.  A simple in and out shopping trip… so she thought.  After picking up the 2 items that she went in for and trying ever so carefully to avoid the dreaded “toy” section she started for the cash registers.  But, low and behold, those Target people are clever and decided to make a huge display on one of the side aisles with all kinds of things that are right up a 3 year old boy’s alley.  Trucks, diggers (I don’t actually know the names of this stuff), and dump trucks.

Parker’s eyes lit up with joy!  “Mommy,  Mommy, Mommy look!  TRUCKS!”  Parker’s mom’s face was a little less joyful.  “Oh Yay!”  she said.  ” Can I get one?  Pretty Please..”  He asked looking ever so cute.  And so Parker’s mom replied, “Probably not today sweetheart.  Christmas is almost here and so we can ask Santa for one.”  She thought this was a pretty safe answer.  Oh how wrong she was.  “But I want it!”  He cried, “But I want it!”  She tried to keep her composure and said, “I know you do sweetie, but that’s something that Santa needs to bring you.”  As she started to inch the cart away, Parker went into a full on meltdown.   In the end, Parker’s mom left with her 2 items she needed and Parker left with a new truck and a bag of Oreos…

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This week Og tells us “I will persist until I succeed.” 

How is it that a 3 year old knows this instinctively, and it is something that adults have to re-read on a daily basis to get it through their head?

I am deciding to take a page from my son’s playbook.  I know what I want and I will kick and scream and fight until I walk away with it… and a bag of Oreos.